Demi Moore went all out in her new memoir 'Inside Out' as
she dropped some bombshell confession of her turbulent relationship with her
ex-husband, Ashton Kutcher and others.
The book which was released on Tuesday September 24,
prompted a media tour as the actress revealed being the victim of sexual
assault, her turbulent years with ex-husband Ashton Kutcher and her spiral into
alcohol and substance abuse.
Demi began her story by discussing her troubled childhood.
She recounted digging pills out of the mouth of her teenage mother at the age
of 12 and being taken to bars to get attention from men by her suicidal mother.
This led to her being sexually assaulted by a man her mother knew. The man
claimed that her mother “whored” her out for $500.
“I don’t think it was a straightforward transaction, but she
still did give him the access and put me in harm’s way,” she told ABC's Diane
Sawyer.
Her mother battled alcoholism and suicide at that time and
she also learnt that the man she thought was her dad wasn’t her biological
father. The traumatic incident made her believe that she “wasn’t wanted” and
she didn’t “deserve to be here.”
The actress also believes that she took fellow actor, Jon
Cryer's virginity while they were
on set of 1984’s No Small Affair.
“I played a young nightclub singer, and Jon Cryer played the
nineteen-year-old photographer who falls in love with her, in his first movie
role,” Moore wrote.
“Jon fell for me in real life, too, and lost his virginity
to me while we were making that movie.
She continued, “It pains me to think of how callous I was
with his feelings — that I stole what could have been such an important and
beautiful moment from him.”
Jon Cryer however denied the claim in a tweet which read;
“Well, the good thing about this is she doesn’t have to feel
bad about it anymore, because while I’m sure she was totally justified making
that assumption based on my my [sic] skill level (and the stunned look on my
face at the time), I had actually lost my virginity in high school.”
He did, however, confirm that she was right about one thing:
“I was over the moon for her during a very troubled time in her life,” he
added. “I have nothing but affection for her and not a regret in the world.”
The actress also talked about cheating on Freddy Moore who
she was married to for 5 years in her memoir. According to her, she was just 18
when they married got in 1980 she cheated on him shortly before tying the knot.
“The night before we got married, instead of working on my
vows, I was calling a guy I’d met on a movie set,” Moore wrote. “I snuck out of
my own bachelorette party and went to his apartment.”
“Why did I do that? Why didn’t I go and see the man I was
committing to spend the rest of my life with to express my doubts? Because I
couldn’t face the fact that I was getting married to distract myself from
grieving the death of my father,” she continued. “Because I felt there was no
room to question what I’d already put in motion. I couldn’t get out of the
marriage, but I could sabotage it.”
She went on to share details of her marriage to Bruce Willis
which lasted for 13 years (1987-2000). The actress said he felt her career was
making her take so much time away from the family and that made him unsure of
their marriage.
On her marriage with Bruce who she has three daughters with,
Moore wrote, “It’s a funny thing to say, but I’m very proud of our divorce.”
“I think Bruce was fearful at the beginning that I was going
to make our split difficult, and that I would express my anger and whatever
baggage that I had from our marriage by obstructing his access to the kids —
that I’d turn to all of those ploys divorcing couples use as weapons,” she
continued. “But I didn’t, and neither did he.”
Moore admitted the split “wasn’t easy at first, but we
managed to move the heart of our relationship, the heart of what created out
family, into something new that gave the girls a loving, supportive environment
with both parents.”
In fact, Moore said, “We felt more connected than we did
before the divorce.”
Also narrating all that happened in her 8 year marriage to
her much-younger ex-husband Ashton Kutcher, the
“G.I. Jane” star said she was
coerced into threesomes that left her with feelings of “shame.”
“I put him first,” Moore wrote. “So when he expressed his
fantasy of bringing a third person into our bed, I didn’t say no. I wanted to
show him how great and fun I could be.”
Although Moore said the women who participated in the
threesomes were “good people,” she called the experiences “a mistake.”
“Because we had brought in a third party into our
relationship, Ashton said, that blurred the lines and, to some extent, justified
what he’s done,” Moore wrote of her former husband’s alleged cheating.
On her “gradual downward spiral” during her 45th birthday
trip to Mexico, Demi said Kutcher took a drunken photo of her to shame her. She
revealed that she started drinking heavily and was “passing out and slipping
under the water” in a hot tub, an act which made Kutcher who carried her back
to bed furious.
“Ashton had encouraged me to go in this direction. When I
went too far, though, he let me know how he felt by showing a picture he’d
taken of me resting my head on the toilet the night before,” she wrote. “It
seemed like a good-natured joke at the time. But it was really just shaming.”
The actress lost a 6-months pregnancy, following a
miscarriage she suffered 2 years into her marriage to Kutcher.
“I can’t even really bring fully to words how lost, empty,
desperate, confused … I really lost sight of everything that was right in front
of me, which was the family that I had,” Moore said of her feelings after
losing the child, a girl who she would have named Chaplin Ray.
After her divorce from Kutcher in 2013, she began abusing
substances like Vicodin and alcohol. She revealed that her three daughters
stopped speaking to her, and her former husband and friend, Bruce Willis, grew
distant as well.
“I lost me,” Moore told Diane Sawyer during her Good Morning
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